By: Staci Stallings
Yep, we’ve all been there. No matter how deep our faith, no matter how solid our belief in God, no matter how pious our hearts, we’ve messed up… again.
Maybe we yelled at our child because we’d had a rough day and couldn’t take life one more second. Maybe we repeated that thing we heard about that girl in accounting—you know that little rumor that’s been going around. Maybe we went to the Bible study and railed about someone down the street, knowing the whole time that we are as guilty of that sin as anyone.
The truth is that messing up can come in many forms, and most of the time we are far more adept at pointing it out in others than in seeing it in ourselves. The deeper truth is that we see it very clearly in ourselves, but we simply can’t face that we could be such an awful person.
Wouldn’t someone walking with Christ, someone who says they trust Him, NOT do these things? Wouldn’t they know to walk on the other side of the street when they see trouble coming at them? Wouldn’t they know that the sin they commit will always be hung around their necks eventually?
Of course we know that, but instead of facing up to those things we’ve done, those times we have fallen short, we try to bury them. If no one knows, maybe it will go away. We can’t face that we’ve done this thing… again.
I understand. Been there, done that, have the T-shirt crumpled in the bottom of my closet hoping no one will ever dig deep enough to find it.
The other day I was talking to a friend who was dealing with her own issues of “again.” “I don’t know why I keep doing this. I’m thinking God is tired of hearing about this one from me.” Believe me, I understand! I think we all feel like that about something.
Then I said something profound (which generally means it wasn’t me talking at all).
“You know, I think too often we believe more in God’s judgment than in His mercy.”
Which do you believe in more? It makes a huge difference when you come to one more of those “Again Moments.”